waiting for {you}

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When Rachel saw 

that she was not bearing Jacob any children, 

she became jealous of her sister. 

So she said to Jacob, 

"Give me children, 

or I'll die!" 

{Genesis 30:1}

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For You,


Do you know.... somewhere deep in your soul .... that your Mama has been waiting for You for such a long long long time? 


I was just wondering if you Knew... that tonight was one of those nights where the ache of missing you and the agony of waiting for you just assaulted my whole spirit ... that I wept, loud, ugly, endless tears.... because my arms are heavy with the emptiness of missing you... that I asked God "why" a lot .... that your Daddy held me close for a long time and wiped my tears because he's amazing (what a blessing that you get to have him be your Dad... oh, he is more wonderful than I can say)...


I just wonder where you are... and when you will be here... and if you miss us too.


I will wait as long as it takes. 
I love you.

{Mama}